The Puzzle of My Heart

Life is full of ups and downs. This blog records the ups and downs that form the pieces which complete puzzle of my heart...

Friday, October 13, 2006

Too Silly

Exam's over!! The tension that I feel before is all forgotten! Funny, when I look at my previous blog, I think I over reacted at that time due to the stress to do well in exam. But there is nothing I can do now except to wait for the results of my exam. Hopefully I can do well in it since I put a lot of effort in the exam.

Well, previous night I had an entry for my blog but due to connection problem, it is not saved. Too lazy to write it all over again but think it will be interesting to share it will all of you again.

I did something really silly when I study for my Information Systems and Multimedia exam on Thursday (12th October 2006) that I took pictures of the Phase 2 of MMU Cyberjaya. Supposed to study yet still have time to notice the changes happening.

This picture is taken on 16th September 2006 of the phase 2 MMU Cyberjaya of the new stadium. The field was only half-filled with grass. (maybe less than half-filled)


The picture was taken on 12th October 2006. The field was already filled with grass. The wall of the stadium was already built. If you notice carefully, u can see that the toilet at the left corner of this pic was already painted.

See, I was too silly to tell everyone about this but I was excited as the view from my hostel room overlook the Phase 2. Compare to before, the view now is nicer as there is something green to look at and not a field that is filled with brown soil which is an eyesore, hehe.

I was too free to look at it and notice those small changes instead of using the time that I had to study and blogging about it instead.

That's all from me.

Hope that you guys take time to look at it especially MMU students.

~KEAT YEE signing off~

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

天 灰


Pictures taken from my hostel room overlooking the phase 2 of MMU Cyberjaya campus at 7.00 p.m.
3rd October 2006, Tuesday, Hazy

Today had been a hazy day (as you can see from the pictures above). Those pictures were taken when I get a rest while studying in my hostel room.
My feeling as this moment is almost like the hazy day outside. Management exam tomorrow yet I am still here blogging. I am supposed to finish up what I need to study yet I take a step back from it (still have a lot of things that I can't remember). I don't think I am well prepared for tomorrow even if I burn midnight oil for it. It's FINAL EXAM!! But why am I feeling this way?
I am really tired now. 我很累,真的很累。 我想放弃却又不可。
I can't give up now. I have made a pact that I will prove to my parents that I can do well here.
I remember someone told me that the only thing that the only thing he doesn't want to see is me giving up.
I remember people said to me that I can do it.
People had been saying that Form 6 is the hardest thing that a student can go through. I been through it once and yeah, it's the hardest thing that a student can go through but I never feel this way. The feeling of giving up never been in my dictionary while I am studying in Form 6.
But this time around, I can't feel the power to go on. I almost gave up. My heart is not in all this now. I wonder why I feel this way? Nothing bothers me right now. I go through the whole semester without problem and sadness at all but it's Final now yet I feel like giving up? Not love problem ( I don't have lover at all right now), not family problem (my family did not give me any problem). Tears rolling down as I wrote this. I had been feeling grey this week and I did not cry at all yet I cry while I am writing this?
I know I can't consult anyone on the state I am going through right now. I know that I have to stand up on my own. Not relying on people.
Nothing can explains my feeling better than part of the lyrics from the song '天 灰' by S.H.E.
"我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭"
I feel like running away from all these. No, I can't give up now.
I will try my best.
Maybe I am feeling this way because I wanted to be the best of all.
That's all for now.
~KEAT YEE signing off~