About Me..

I am here blogging now but somehow I don't have anything special to share so I juz going to express my feeling here...sigh..

Sometimes I don't know who I am, never really understands myself, and never to go out to find actually what i want i life, with the situation now that I dunno what I am suppose to apply for the university entry, whether it's local or private university. Poeple had been saying that it's a wastage for me to study business just because I studied Science when i was in Form 6. But now when I consider carefully, I think it's not a wastage cos what u learned from school is not wasted cos it's a knowledge. I had consider carefully and I think doing something related to Science is not what I want to do my whole life(e.g. doctor, research, scientist,whatever it is...)

The only thing I apply for university is food tech/science and biotech with my last 2 choices is something like management and communication, just in case I don't qualify for those food tech and biotech. As all knows, local university entry is not easy if u really want to get your first four choicesSo now I applied for MMU just in case I can't get what i chose. And there are people that says MMU courses is not good since it's multimedia combined with business...sigh...well, let's see.

This is the third day I'm writing the same blog...sigh...time is so short...i can't even have the time to complete a same thing fast. That's me, always slow in whatever I do. Miss out on my time just because I procrastinate in everything I do, from the past till now. One work is delayed and other work that follows will also be delayed. That's why I was never succesful in everything I do.This will be the reason if I fail in something. I was a total failure. I have this attitude because I don't have the courage to face whatever I do. OR I shouldn't be giving excuses for my attitude! I should have find a way to improve my situation. Sigh...

And life is really short. In 2 weeks period, I had heard about 3 death. What a life!! Sometimes we can't control death but among the 3 dead, 2 died because of cancer and died because of heart failure. One is my cousin's grandmother, she died while he's overseas on the way home, I think that he feel a bit of regret cos he can't see her grandma for the last time, but in life, we have regrets. Nothing we can do about it, just have to accept it and go on with life.

Now, I'm at a point where I lost my directions. Nothing to seem right for me, I'm restless, and an easy task of transferring a parcel from my workplace to another branch can be in a mess. But it can't be my fault, I can't make decision over it as it's THE COMPANY that pay for it, I have asked the admin what am I supposed to do with it, and they say I should asked the Accounts dept, and the Accounts dept told me to ask Admin Dept. Back to Admin dept and they told me to ask Accounts about the payment, and back to Accounts dept and they told me to ask the branch manager about the payment, and manager told me to ask Accounts dept about payment.

Finally someone make the first step of calling the courier service. And when I called the courier company for the second time, I lost direction and dunno what I should tell them. My colleague realised this and told me that all this while she thought me was a multi-tasker and this is the first time she saw me get lost. But the truth is, I am not even a multi-tasker. I am doing a lot of task at the same time cos I delay everything. Well, nothing I can say about me anymore....